It always catches me unawares. I never see it coming. It arrives at full force. More often than not, I have to really think about what it is that’s bugged me, upset me, hacked me off, irritated me, made me cross or made me sad. I whittle my way through various happenings. Has it been something that somebody has said to me? Have I read it? Has it been someone’s behaviour. Is it someone or something I miss? Or is it something I’m worried or anxious about? Oh, I get to it eventually. The thing that’s eating away at me. And when I do, it always makes me think ‘UGH’. Depending on what it is, it can even make me sick to my stomach. I mull over it. It’s normally the first thing I think of when I wake. It’s like a big, black cloud. And I think and I think and I think. How to deal with it? What can I change? What is it I need to do? It may be that I’m missing the kids, or the grandkids. It may be someone who I feel has put me down. It may be something I really don’t want to do. Or Something at work in which I see no benefit. Perhaps something I really need or want to do but don’t have the time or resources for. My exercise plan. The way I look. Another wrinkle appearing. The past. It’s often comparisons. Sometimes it can be something that flags up the fact that I’m not quite where I expected to be at this stage of my life. Once I get to the bottom of what’s bugging me and decide on a plan of action - whatever that may be - that big, black cloud begins to lift. Ultimately, it disappears. I work it out or it sorts itself out of its own accord. Over time, I’ve learnt to accept certain things. I know I’m much better at working through things far better than I used to. And when it’s cleared, things seem ‘right’ again. Until the next time. Sometimes though, I just can’t seem to find it or get to the bottom of what’s irking me. Something lurks for a while. When I know something’s up but I just can’t put my finger on what it is, that’s when I feel so completely out of sorts.

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Katie Pertiet
Antibes Add-On Paper Pack
Watery Washes No. 04 Brushes and Stamps

Maplebrook Studios
Clear Thru Alphabet No. 05

Studio Double-D
Readymade Borders Neutral

Lynn Grieveson
Stitched Down Dates

Ali Edwards
This Is Classic Brushes and Stamps - altered
Story Overlays 6x4 Journalers Value Pack - altered

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